So...my little experiment sucks. I was out last night and texted Brooks "partially drunk text". That was it. He sent me nothing back. He hasn't spoken directly to me since Thursday. We commented to each other a couple of times on Facebook on Friday. I can see that he's online right now, I think, but he hasn't messaged me at all. And I'm sick and tired of being the one to initiate the contact. I don't know if I've done something. I have no idea. I'm mind-fucking myself and I hate it. Every other day I'm crying about this. It's this feeling of being rejected. Of humiliation. I'm so sick of trying.

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