Comments:

cardiogirl - 2007-08-26 05:39:39
Oh Judith. I feel for you. Let me share an experience from Friday that hopefully will let you know you are not alone. I have been feeling depressed about my mother and brother. And I am trying to hide that from the world. My in-laws came to visit on Friday afternoon and they got here much earlier than I expected. I was actually on the phone with the doctor talking about what kind of sleeping pill I could take while they were ringing the doorbell. I finished with the doctor, my house was a MESS and they jumped right on it and helped me clean everything as I cried, embarrassed, in front of everyone. They all know I am taking Ambien CR (which is working quite well, by the way) they know my kids smeared FOOD on the living room wall which I ignored and let dry because I couldn't deal with it right then. My point is that I am extremely embarrassed but I am trying to tell myself that my worst case scenario happened and I did not spontaneously combust (even though I wish I had.) But they now have seen most of the warts I guard fiercely for fear of complete and total embarrassment. It made me feel so depressed, vulnerable and helpless. I hope you can find inner strength and peace regarding your situation. And sometimes it helps me to know even though I feel completely alone in this world, there are other people out there who are struggling as well.
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boom boom - 2007-08-26 08:11:16
so struggle along with the rest of us! i for one am glad you didnt carry out your plan... and i didnt tell my therapist everything either, unless she asked a direct question that i couldnt avoid....
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webmiss - 2007-08-26 11:57:23
oh Judith, I'm so sorry things went the way they did last night. I don't understand why he would ask when you were coming to the bar and then leave without inviting you. Am I dense or something? Seems to me if he's asking when you're going to get there, he was looking forward to seeing you. I don't get it.
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Ange - 2007-08-26 13:51:02
Judith, I know the feeling of depression and wanting to die. I have been there before and my heart aches for you feeling this way. Please know that more people care about you than may meet the eye and feelings of loneliness are fleeting if you can just make it through the nights. And I know...nights are the worst. I'm sending you positive vibes, energy and the knowledge that you are a smart, strong, and ultra-cool woman who deserves to be happy. This is regardless of any other man on God's green earth. You are worthy and deserving of love and when the time and person is right it will happen for you. In the meantime, it looks like you have a lot of cheerleaders in your corner. *hugs*
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yankeechick - 2007-08-27 10:13:40
I thought I better introduce myself before you think you have a stalker :) I have seen your comments on several mutual blog buddy sites and thought I would check you out. I read several entries this AM and then thought before I get too carried away, I should say Hi and make sure it's okay! (Webmiss and Cardio can vouch for me....right, guys?? you will vouche for me...right guys??) Anyway, let me know if you want me to buzz off!
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Muffinhead - 2007-08-27 15:31:34
....in my dreams I'm dying all the time..... -Moby
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Muffinhead - 2007-08-27 15:35:46
....in my dreams I'm dying all the time....-Moby
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