He hasn't emailed me back. So I think I've been dumped. I am not sure what I did and I don't want him to tell me exactly why because that is too painful. He's not the easiest person to communicate with, not that many men are. I'm so tired at the thought of having to start over again in a relationship.
What is wrong with me? Why did I open myself to him? I hate that I trusted him. Not enough to tell him about my virginity, thankfully. But still, I trusted him. And that's what really hurts.
And just to add this Smiths' song. Here are the lyrics that perfectly encompass how I am feeling. Especially the line about if only you'd meet me then I know you would like me. That desperation of "Please...I could be good enough."Oh ...
I know I'm unloveable
You don't have to tell me
I don't have much in my life
But take it - it's yours
I don't have much in my life
But take it - it's yours
Oh ...
I know I'm unloveable
You don't have to tell me
Oh, message received
Loud and clear
Loud and clear
I don't have much in my life
But take it - it's yours
I know I'm unloveable
You don't have to tell me
For message received
Loud and clear
Loud and clear
Message received
I don't have much in my life
But take it - it's yours
I wear Black on the outside
'Cause Black is how I feel on the inside
I wear Black on the outside
'Cause Black is how I feel on the inside
And if I seem a little strange
Well, that's because I am
If I seem a little strange
That's because I am
But I know that you would like me
If only you could see me
If only you could meet me
Oh ...
I don't have much in my life
But take it - it's yours
I don't have much in my life
But take it - it's yours
Mmm ...
Oh ...
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